fuckyeahhlove:

Hi, this is a letter that a friend of mine wrote (as a note on facebook) about her boyfriend who died too young. The both of them went to my school but graduated last year. Their love, shown in this letter, is so great and overwhelming that teaches me to cherish every single person that you know now. You never know when that person will be taken away from you. 

Baby I keep expecting my phone to ring on PingChat and for you to leave me a message telling me you love me. The last conversation we had was you telling me how much you love me. I was going through all of our inboxes. And you left me something without knowing it.

“babe, i know that’s it’s scary to be thrown into a new surrounding filled with awkward and new things and it’s only natural to feel stressed and nervous for being scared of the unknown but i know you can do it. especially considering that you are Patrina Chan, just pull through and i’ll be there soon enough to hold you.” I feel you so near me I know you’re watching over me. I know you’ll be there to hold me when I need it. You held me up last night and made me strong for everyone else. I felt strong for myself and I know it was you. I know it was you baby.

We’re getting married like we said we would baby, I promise. It’s only a matter of time. 50 years? PSH! I’d wait a million years just as long as I know that I’d have you in the end. I’m waiting and I know you are too. You made me so insanely happy. I had a heart to heart with your Dad and he’s so proud to have you as a son. I had a heart to heart with your mom and she was so greatful for the joy you brought to our lives. I was so lucky I came in time to be able to kiss you to sleep until my lips got numb. Remember everything I whispered into your ear ok?

I’m going to take care of your family. I’ll take care of Tiff, Michelle, and Kel. I’ll take care of Wonka, Pipi, Ollie, Mickey and Princess even though I’m allergic. I’ll make sure Dada and Linda and Uncle Din are ok. I’ll make sure your parents know how much you love and adore them. When you left, your dad turned to me and said he was happy to have a new daughter. I felt so happy and I know it must’ve made you proud. Remember what he said to you too, ok baby? He loves you so much more than you’ll ever know. So does your Mom and your sisters.

They both told me that you changed for the better when we became a couple. That they’ve never seen you so mature. I told them you made me grow too. You made me see the good in everyone and taught me how to love someone till my heart was about to burst. I’ll never forget your smile, the way you looked at me, the way you always had to hold my hand. Your sweet kisses and your loving hugs made my heart sing. I felt so on top of the world every minute I was with you. You are the biggest blessing and I thank God for putting an angel in my life.

I love you. Those three words don’t even do what we have between us justice. I feel you right now baby. Kiss me! I held Cornelious to sleep last night. I remember that day you waited for me downstairs, holding him with the biggest smile on your face. It was Valentines day.

We made it to our 11 month anniversary baby! I’m happy I got to kiss you just in time. We’ll make it through the rest of our years here. Next month when we hit the one year mark please give me one million kisses and hold me for the whole day. We can lie in bed together and dance to Earth Angel like we did before I left for New York in my room.

When you left, you had everyone in the room. There was so much love for you baby. We all said a prayer. We held hands- Chor and Kelly held your hand and I lead the prayer. I don’t know how I managed to be so strong, telling everyone not to cry. It was you who gave me the strength. I chose your favorite song for everyone to sing- Mr. Brightside because I remember how crazy you’d get when it came on at Velvet. It made me smile. Tommy sang the loudest.

I’m going to do whatever I can to be able to live my life here to the fullest for the both of us, because that’s what you would’ve wanted. Baby these past 11 months have been the best time of my life. I know what you said to John before you stepped into that cab and it broke my heart that you had to leave us this way. We will find justice, I’m not going to stop until we do.

I’m staying strong baby. I feel so at peace because I saw you walk towards the light. I’m at peace because I know you believe now. And because of that, I believe. I finally believe with all my heart and soul.

On the plane ride here, I went to the bathroom to gather myself. I fell on my knees and I prayed. I cried till my there were no more tears. I prayed harder than I ever have before and I prayed for a miracle. God gave me that miracle. It was seeing you walk to the gates of heaven.

I’m keeping the ring you gave me. You slipped it on my wedding finger and I’ll never take it off. I’m putting on the promise ring I gave you on your finger later. It’ll be a reminder of what’s to come. I love you Lawrence Michael Fan. I love you so damn much. I really am the luckiest girl in the world.

-The Future Mrs. Lawrence Michael Fan

Also, one of my friends Willow commented on this and I would also like to share it. Willow: We could spend our entire life time looking for that special someone, and we can wait an eternity for that special someone to come…but there are always the lucky ones in life that don’t have to wait or look at all, and without trying just coincidentally show up at each other’s front door. the power of love is such a strong force that could be felt even with the slightest brush of the hand, or a simple glance from one to another. You are one of the lucky ones Trina.I would have cried so much if my man instincts hadn’t kicked in. But some tears were sneaky and escaped from my eyes.
I’t so unbelievable the amount of love i felt in this Trina…it is beautiful beyond words. I am so sorry for your loss. I don’t know if Pamela showed it to you yet, but just so you know I, as well as every single one of your friends and family members will be there for you. Lawrence will forever live through the numerous memories of him, and he will forever be watching over you. 
Our hearts, wishes and prayers will be for you, lawrence and both your families

by anonymous

 This. Is. So. Freaking. Sweet.